What I've learned

#1 - There are two types of stress. The first kind where you have way too much to do and too little time to do it. Work, life, friends, family...all of it is busy and overwhelming. I LOVE this kind of stress. I thrive in it. I eat it up!

The other kind of stress is the when you don't know you are stressed until you realize you have no appetite, are breaking out and seem to be a little anxious for no reason. This type of stress I HATE.

#2 - I am not a patient person. Some people are good at waiting. I am not. I am sure to no fault of my parents or my upbringing. As the youngest of four, I know waiting and patience was a required part of my life. But it's just not something I excel at. In fact, being required to "wait patiently" or "hang in there" as larger, life-altering decisions are being made only seems to create or add to the aforementioned stress that I hate. Here is a little example from my day today (sidenote: this conversation took place between 2:15 pm and 5:15 pm this afternoon. yes, that is only a 3 hour window of time):

me: so Alan Hall is suppose to "track me down" later today
Adrea: um, ok, no pressure or anything. whoo! though!
me: i know! i feel like i am going to vomit
Adrea: don't vomit
me: thanks for the advice
me: at this point it almost feels like a prank
me: swing by tell me that at some point you will be "tracking me down" don't tell when though
so i am scared to leave my office on the off chance that you come by during the 3 min i leave to use the bathroom
Adrea: lolololol
me: well and i looked at his calendar just to see when he had a free minute that he might swing by and he is booked solid till 5. so i figure...sometime between now and 405 he could swing by...trying to get it in between meetings
Adrea: lets hope!!
me: but i have to pee
me: i am going to get an ulcer
Adrea: CALM
PRAYER
MEDITATION
PEE!!!!!!!
me: nothing yet
Adrea: eerie , i was about to ask but afraid of it beeping wile he was there
me: maybe he will swing by at 5. seriously my insides might explode. i think i am just not going to move from my desk until Alan comes by...it it means i have to sleep here than so be it
Adrea: this sucks.
me: thank you!
Adrea: but i guess not too bad
me: no no. back to this sucks. don't minimize it.
Adrea: lol
me: it sucks! its awful
Adrea: you make me snort
me: horrible, no good, very bad, its heartwrenching
Adrea: mmhmmm. heart wrenchng
me: every minute that goes by a little piece of me inside dies
Adrea: will you please copy and paste this into your blog because you're cracking me up
me: ok so i talked to Alan